November 1, 1999
Dear Diary,
After last night, I decided to keep a diary of my life. First, I want to tell you about me. I am 35 years old. I have 5 children whom I love dearly. I am married to a man who beats me. That is the main reason I wanted to keep a diary. I don't understand the reason why my husband beats me. I thought in a marriage a husband is suppose to love their wife, not hate her. Yes, I feel like my husband hates me. He has repeatedly put his hands on me. I don't understand why. I try to be the best wife I can be, but it's not enough for him. I have thought about trying to leave him. I don't know what goes through his head. Maybe one day he will try to beat my kids and not me. I don't know what to do.
Sincerely,
Zarmina
November 4, 1999
Dear Diary,
I'm sorry I haven't been able to write these last few days. My husband has gotten worse. He thinks that I'm writing letters to other men in this diary. He beat me for that. My body is so tired of the mistreatment. I had to hide this diary in my oldest daughter's room. I knew if he found it he would surely beat me to death. I hate the way he is being towards me. He thinks I'm his slave and he's my master. Well, that's how I feel. I still don't know what I can do to make the situation better. I think I might have to leave.
Sincerely,
Zarmina
November 8, 1999
Dear Diary,
These past few days, I have been very busy. I have a plan. I have talked to my eldest daughter. She, too, knows the plan. She understands the way her father mistreats me and agrees I should do whatever I can to make things better for our family. So, I decided that I'm going to make my husband the best dinner he will ever have- maybe even his last. My daughter will keep her siblings quiet, so we can have this date. It will be just the two of us. I plan on doing this in a couple days . My plan is to feed him well, ask him why he beats me, and if he gets outraged, give him this dessert that has poisoning in it. Yes, I will kill him if that is what it takes. I'm tired of being beat. I don't deserve this.
Sincerely,
Zarmina
November 10, 1999
Dear Diary,
I told my husband we would have dinner in two days. I told him that I have something very special planned for him. He is going to love it. He seemed kind of confused. He didn't react the way I thought he would. Well, I know he hasn't put his hands on me in about 5 days. Maybe he is becoming a better man already. Maybe I won't need my plan to kill him. I sure hope not.
Sincerely,
Zarmina
November 12, 1999
Dear Diary,
Tonight is the night! My husband and I will have our date. I'm going to be real short today because I have a lot to get done. I'm so excited. I hope the night goes well.
Sincerely,
Zarmina
The Diary Of Ashley
November 8, 1999
Dear Diary,
Today my mother talked to me about my father. She is tired of him. He does hit her sometimes, but I don't think it's that bad. I love my father. I love my mother as well. I want to tell my father to be good to my mother. I don't know how to tell him without it being suspicious. I don't want to betray my mother.
Sincerely,
Ashley
November 10, 1999
Dear Diary,
I walked with my father to work this morning. I told him I wanted to talk to him. We walked and talked for about ten minutes. He works at a place very close to our home. I told him that him beating on my mother is affecting us, the children. He agreed that he wouldn't hit her anymore. Well, try not to when we're around.
Sincerely,
Ashley
November 12, 1999
Dear Diary,
My father has been very strange these past few days. He hasn't been hitting my mother. I think him not hitting her has changed him. I think that gives him life. Today when he comes home, I'm going to tell him about mom's plan and how he pushed her to it. I hope he will be understanding.
Sincerely,
Ashley
November 13, 1999
Dear Diary,
Yesterday was HORRIBLE. My father beat my mother half to death when I told him about her plan. I feel I should be the one getting beat on rather than her. It is all my fault. I just wanted to make it better. He beat her, then put her in bed, and called the police and told them to come to our house in the morning. They came this morning and took her away. MY MOTHER. MY HEART. MY EVERYTHING. They took her away because she threatened to beat my father. They didn't even ask questions about what happened to her.
Sincerely,
Ashley
November 14, 1999
Dear Diary,
NO. NO. NO. My mother has been gone for a day now. I miss her so much. For some reason, my father slapped me yesterday. He claims I betrayed him. How? I told him. If it's anything I betrayed my mother. I let her down. She's some where in a jail cell beaten half to death. I love my father, but I'm starting to hate him now. He is a monster. I want my mother back.
Sincerely,
Ashley
November 15, 1999
Dear Diary
My father has begin to take his anger out on me. He comes home mad and just slaps me around. He has even threatened to marry me off. Really he wants to sell me. My mother would be horrified if she knew this. We haven't heard from her since the day she left. I wish I could rewind time. I want my life to go back to the way it use to be. I have been without my mother for two days now. I hate my life.
Sincerely,
Ashley
November 16, 1999 (1:00 p.m)
Dear Diary,
This morning before my father left he told me to have my siblings and myself dressed when he returns. I don't know where we are going. I'm very scared. Maybe he will try to sell all of us. I guess he doesn't want anything to do with us anymore. My life is just going downhill. I hope he doesn't want to sell his kids. We're already split from our mother. I don't want to be split from my siblings too. I'm very hurt and confused .
Sincerely,
Ashley
November 16, 1999 (7:00 p.m.)
Dear Diary,
I want to commit suicide. My siblings and I just sat through a tortuous event. I had to sit and watch my mother get shot in her head three times. No one deserves such punishment. My dad is evil. He could have told us where we going. Maybe I could have prepared myself a little better. My siblings are tortured for life. My youngest brother is only 3 years old. He shouldn't have to see his mother die that way. You know what? I think I might just finish the job my mother had planned out.
Sincerely,
Ashley
P.S. I love and miss you mommy. R.I.P Zarmina.
Works Cited
The Associated Press/Revolutionary Association of the Women of Aghanistan. "Political Execution of a Woman." Terrorism: Essential Primary Sources. Ed. K. Lee Lerner and Brenda Wilmoth Lerner. Detroit; Gale, 2006. 218-220. Opposing Viewpoints in Context. Web. 10 Mar. 2014.
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